sigh
so much happens. so little time or energy to write.
spring break. my wife had a trip planned and then the fire. i had been stressed so long that a getaway seemed appropriate.
we went to california to visit friends and ended up in the joshua tree state park.
our friends had rented the house in the bottom of the screen. i took this from my phone on a hike.
meanwhile, at home, someone stole a lot of tools and stuff. the total loss was about $2500 but i have no insurance for loss of contents at work because we use our alarm. the alarm was down due to the fire so i spent one day in california on the phone between the contractor and the security company, getting the alarm back working. they stole both of my circular saws, my 2 new drills, my jigsaw, my video camera, still camera, and 2 work iPods. then they stole a list of other tools from other folks who had tools there.
later, loading up some wood at lowe’s i busted out my back window. then the next day some large shelves in my greenhouse collapsed. the electrician’s bid came in at twice what i expected. i am back home and in the daily stresses are heavy on my shoulders, but i picked green and began to paint the new satchel’s myself.
thank GOD for easter and my mom’s cooking and entertaining of the kids…
if i was not so tired i would tell you a million stories and show you 500 pictures, but i can’t believe i got this far. i’ve been working such long days that todays 12 hours seems like nothing. this is a trial for me. trying times for sure. but my kids are beacons and my wife is my inspiration and the people out there who love pizza miss my place. i miss it. hard.
i am constantly putting out the bright image of optimism. behind the curtain it is a struggle every day. i know it shouldn’t be but there is so much to do my brain hurts.
funny how a small fire can change so much.
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