today my neck muscles are sore and tender. my hand is still tingly and my pinky is getting better but only slightly.
i have made up some hand exercises where i put all my fingers together and push and bend and stretch the finger muscles.
quite a productive day all told. there are 2 new beer can columns and the treehouse began to get some adornments in the way of shaved cypress wood, driftwood pieces, cypress knees, and general natural woody enhancements. much harder to explain than it should be. the idea is to add some natural wooden elements onto the milled PT lumber railings and deck supports to suggest a more rustic look. it’s almost like “satch’s raft adventure treehouse” sort of look. while the elements are all natural, being glued and nailed to 4×4′s or railings has a certain disney-esque quality. but in disney’s case the “natural elements” would likely be fake cypress knees and plastic driftwood that looks real…
i think it has finally happened. you know how some people once had blogs and then facebook came out and they sort of drifted over to that platform? well, i once had a journal and i finally mostly drifted to writing in the blog. because i like to write as an outlet, and because it helps me sort through my activities, accomplishments, and mania, i used to write a lot in a private journal about pretty much the same stuff i’ve been writing here ( but with an occasional anecdote about the complexities of marriage, children or employees or customers….) i was always scared to get into the long rants about computers or the trivial daily happenings here because of the obvious and plain fact that the material is not interesting enough for the general public. but something happened. at first i was using the blog like a facebook page. it was early 2007 and facebook was basically not even on the radar. i remember trying to keep my posts very brief and include links and photos, and the idea was to put on the public face of my life with a blog. it didn’t take long before i realized that all these stories about my kids, and pictures of my family, seemed dangerous and too personal. so i abandoned the family interest stories and family photos and began to try and focus the blog on work related activities. (this is how it all seems in my mind, i may be distorting the facts some but i’m certainly not going back to research this…) anyway- as work stories became too hard to tell without the stories about the people working at satchel’s or the customers, it seems i allowed big gaps of time to pass without blog posts…. well, they can’t be about my kids, or my employees, or my customers…. (they could be – but it just seems dangerous and unprofessional) and the blog became this very occasional place to post and meanwhile… i am also discovering facebook as a work tool, instagram as an artistic endeavor, twitter as a bit of a puzzle to be solved. and spent more time writing in my own bubble about my own thoughts.
and now it feels like if i’m just going to write about boring stuff like my day, what i accomplished, my health, what hurts and the evolution of my own aging…. then i might as well do it here. it’s generally non-offensive, it gives me the outlet of expression, and while it may be as boring as a 2 hour meeting you don’t want to be at, it’s existence is available to all the crazies out there who might like to get inside the head of other crazies in the world. you might say, “oh, his life is boring too and he’s got more health problems than me, cool. ” or ” ha, that dude has a new computer problem every other day! i’m so glad i don’t have those stupid problems and can straighten my pinky up like a champ.”
i don’t know. it’s not like i’m going to abandoned the “journal” altogether. but i gotta wait for super juicy gossip or big life changing internal struggles to feel the need to go there now. neither of those things happen much to me. if i did have juicy gossip i don;t think i’d feel compelled to write about it privately or otherwise, and if i’ve probably already gotten into way too many internal struggles on these pages. like i said at the beginning of this paragraph, i don’t know. i don;t know what my point is, or even if it matters.
here’s the thing to grasp for tonight: i “used” to be able to use my left hang ring finger to hold down the shift key when i needed it but now with my left hand gimpy-ness i can no longer really pull that off. my ring finger just doesn’t currently have the dexterity to do what it could do 2 days ago. fortunately for me i have spent most of my life avoiding holding down that shift key and capitalizing things so now it is only a problem when i want to write something like GRU or LSE. in fact, i am already adapting by using my left hand middle finger instead.
c says to take better care of myself and don’t “over-do it.” my mom says i’m not so young anymore so start taking better care of myself and don’t over-do it. i’ve always been this binge/ purge guy. i wish i was all andy griffith and take it all as it comes and whistle away the day and stuff like that…. but i have always “over-done it” and then pay the price later when i can’t move my hand. it’s like i can barely understand how to change the way i am. i do try and be smarter. i do try and learn from my mistakes. i do want to not be in pain and be around to see my grand kids. but i also want to get the beer can columns up yesterday, and the treehouse adorned before lunch, and the mosaic finished by midnight and every square inch of my building painted by thursday. it’s my blessed curse. i feel most excited and alive when the sparks are coming out of my ears and my mouth is like a bluegrass banjo.
i’ve heard that infecting oneself with a parasite can be a probiotic way of fighting certain illnesses. i’ve read quite a bit on it actually and i will choose this as one of those “not fit for the public” topics to hop over and discuss with myself in the journal. helminthic therapy is the one i have in mind….
i must have mentioned the tesla stock price at some point??? i do not invest in the markets (aside from some boring and losing IRA i signed up for against my will and better judgement. but because i am so into the car tesla i noticed the stock price around $35 per share in january and i mentioned to my IRA investor guy it seemed like a deal. i wanted to get out of my IRA and put all my money into tesla. i did not do that. i am not familiar with even how to do such a thing and everyone with sense in these matters advised against that. my prediction was it would be at $250 per share in 3 years. well, at $167 right now today, that seems not only possible but within 1 year! i know it is priced wacky now and everyone says it will crash. but can you imagine how you would feel buying $10k of stock at $35 and having it sit at $167 8 months later? that 10k investment from january would be $47,714 today.
let me be clear. i don;t care about money in that way. i don’t think the stock market gambling casino is a great way to run an economy. part of me wants to buy and sell stocks because it seems like it would be exciting the way going to vegas is exciting. but i am a conservative dude. behind all the ear sparks and banjo mouth is a guy who wants to pay off debts in a timely fashion and live below my means. but how fun it would be to be the guy who drops his life savings into tesla and quadruples his money in less than a year. now that would be an exciting story to tell on the blog…. NOT how i knew it was a good idea but didn;t put my money on my banjo mouth… that is like the big fish i almost caught. yawn….
another last detail i am ready to come to terms with. somehow in my learning to type i hit the semi-colon key every single damn time i am trying to hit the apostrophe. look… the apostrophe is a much more used key and should be closer to the rest of the letters. the semi-colon is hardly used much at all and should be way off on the side some place. so i can;t help it if they put the semi-colon where the apostrophe should go and to be honest, i;m tired of slowing down when i see it to go back and correct it. i tried to learn to hit the apostrophe for a year and i have not been able to adapt.
so if the blog is the new journal, then the semi-colon is the new apostrophe. so there.